1-1-2015 ?

8 months and counting?

The best girl a guy could ever ask for?

Taking your princess out?

You would think that I would have moved on by now,

I mean it’s only been 8 1/2 MONTHS!

Why didn’t we make it that far?

Just think,

8 months of heaven,

taking me out,

You and I going fishing on Labor day,

but we only made it through 2 months,

the two most busy months of our High School years,

and we didn’t make it,

You were stressed over Football,

I was stretched to thin with Volleyball,

it all started exactly a year ago,

why haven’t I gotten over all these feelings yet?

I haven’t even met her yet,

I can barely get you to text me back anymore,

and worst of all,

a girl on my team reminds me of your sister,

I know I shouldn’t,

But I swear I think about you, at least once a day,

and when I do,

I always remember that time,

like 3 months ago,

we were texting,

and just talking about our past together,

and you told me,

that you regretted never kissing me,

I feel so guilty,

and I don’t know what for,

this is torture,

when we broke up,

my heart broke up,

and I have tried to put it back together,

but I always end up like this,

crying,

sad,

mad at myself,

and thinking abut you,

way. to. much.

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Crazy – Free Verse Poem

Love, an Addiction, that is just that, addicitve

Lying right here every night,

Wishing I could sleep for once,

I close my eyes and see your smile,

Like you’re there in front of me,

Why is my memory so good?

For once I wish it weren’t,

Because every time I stop to think,

I remember something else about you,

Why am I obsessed with you?

Do you think of me this much?

I’m not just saying this,

I can really picture your face,

All the time,

Your smile when we’re texting,

It’s crazy,

I’m crazy,

I know that much,

Oh it’s nothing,

Just me,

Yup,

That must be it,

I’m not surprised,

I’m just crazy,

About you   ❤

Obsessed – Freeverse Poem

Every corner I turn,

I swear I can see your shadow,

Waiting to sneak up on me,

That sound,

That voice,

It sounds just like you,

There’s nothing I do,

That doesn’t remind me of you,

I can’t even think straight,

It’s driving me nuts,

You’ve taken over my brain,

Like a virus,

No way to sleep,

No way to focus,

Can’t you see that it’s driving me crazy,

‘Cuz I can’t get you out of my mind,

It’s impossible,

That song,

It’s so you,

It’s game day,

I hope you’re out there winning,

While I sit here obsessing,

I swear I could hear your voice,

Say my name the other night,

“Gosh, jeez Sunny”,

I don’t want to forget you,

Not that I think I ever will be able to,

You’re the only thing holding me down,

Keeping me straight,

My life line,

The one keeping me from going down stream to fast,

The one and only obsession that I can live with

 ~ Sunshine

September 23, 2014

Why I try ? – Freeverse Poem

Why do I try anymore?

This is all so crazy,

I feel like I’m just wearing myself out,

Just to let myself down,

Again,

Why?

That’s all I can say,

You used to make me feel fearless,

Like someday this would all go away,

But this isn’t Cinderella,

This ain’t no fairy tale,

And only some of my dreams come true,

‘Cuz the nightmares are dreams too,

I can’t sleep,

Just laying there,

Thinking about you,

Nothing is changing,

I’ll be stuck with this reality forever,

‘Cuz I’m only second thought,

I’m just your second best friend,

You text me when there’s nobody else to text,

You just laugh,

Act like we can joke it off,

But this is the reality,

And I can only hurt more,

It can’t get any worse than this,

It’s all downhill from here,

We will never be the same,

Ever again,

You have changed,

You just don’t know it,

But I can see it all,

And it scares me,

To not see what I saw before.

~ Sunshine

September 15th, 2014